skip beat!

so the last couple days i've been kinda down in the dumps. ya know, that time in your life where one bad thing happens and then another bad thing happens and you just get sucked into that vortex where you think that life sucks and is out to get you like some horrible monster. you start imagining all the worst case scenarios and what not. kinda like when you were younger, and when you got kinda upset and then started huffing on your bed, and before you knew it you were in a full blown tantrum that even you dont have control over and dont really know why it began and you cant stop it. anyways, i was there.

yesterday i dedicated the entire day to myself and just making myself feel better and now i feel a ton better! i started watching skip beat! [it's an anime i found on crunchy roll--i was actually trying to find something to watch in cantonese that had english subs but that seems very rare]. i really like the anime and its very up beat! haha, would you have guessed? i love the main character, she initially was a perfect person, always giving, the kind of person you love to hate in real life, and then she falls from that status, and shes trying to get back what she lost. so shes currently flawed like the rest of us, but always giving her 110%! inspired me to give my 110% whenever i can! can you believe i watched 5 hours of skip beat? yeah. insane. and thats in one day. and today i finished everything they have out so far. i cant wait for more!!

tomorrow/today i get to go see an eye pathology! im so excited! its too bad that i have to miss class for it though...i really enjoy matt walker's psych 110 class but i wish i had taken it earlier in my college career b/c i already know a lot of the material. though i cant get too cocky cuz i need to study for this midterm a bit more than i did for the last! siiigh.

oooh, today i'm getting better from my cold! i can breathe again! riiiiicola! haha, didnt even take any ricola though. though, i cant hear. hopefully that will clear up by tomorrow or the next day. and i can walk kinda today. i hobble less and walk more normally. though, i can feel all the muscles pulling in the back of my ankle. siigh. found a big bruise when i took off my brace, i was super shocked! it goes half way down my foot and its about an inch and a half wide and kinda goes up my ankle and fades away. i think it might have showed up b/c today i was actually putting some weight on it. i dont know if thats good for it or not, but mom always says not to hobble cuz it will strain my other muscles!

oh ya! today in the shower i decided something. i want to dress up more. dont now exactly how though. but want to be more presentable. i dont want to be girlier, but i want to make a statement in how i dress. i love watching transformations, so why should i be on the sidelines?! get out there girl! do something! i am thinking of piercing my ears to start, ive always wanted to. but when mom finally said it was okay, i didnt really really want to anymore.

ive also decided to make more of an effort to reach out.